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Au revoir London

Yesterday I left Wisteria ward, then drove 2 and a half hours down to Somerset. I am now at a adult ward where I will finish off my treatment and finally get discharged from.

I was so scared when I found out I was coming here but it's actually okay. Although I'm 18 I really don't feel like I am. Growing up in camhs wards has been hard, I feel like my life went on pause at 14 and I haven't grown up yet. That's the problem with the mental health services, turning 18 means so much when it's just a number. I will write about that another time.

People keep asking me what the main difference between camhs and adults is, I think it's has to be the amount of freedom. Camhs wards are very structured and boundried. Here I have a lot more say about what I want to do. It's nice not having a set plan, I can fill my time with things I actually want to do! I also have a lot more say about my treatment and what I want for the future. Although all this is a little scary as I'm so used to being told what I have to do.

I'm looking forward to getting out and about again. I had a meeting today and it's been decided that I'm allowed to have a 72 hours home leave this weekend and I'm so excited. It's the first over night leave for a very very long time! I can't wait to actually sleep in my own bed for the first time and just spend time with my family.

All my love
Pops x

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  1. Unknown30 April 2017 at 01:37

    Pops this blog has made me cry 💖💖💖💖😩

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